Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The other side of mom

I have found over the years that I increasing sound like my mother.  Every day I sound more and more like her in my work, home, and yes even with my children.  My mom is not your ordinary woman. She is reserved yet driven, kind to a fault and yet can get her point across with a look or one sentence. She is what I have always wanted to be, so in some respects this is an accomplishment for me.

I found myself this week saying things that would only come from her.  Things like "what would you do in that situation?" or "I bet if you thought about it from their perspective you would understand." I'm conflicted about this at times because it is hard think about everyone's feelings before my own, but at the same time it is something that is engrained in my soul. It is who I am because of my mother. 

My middle daughter Makenzie came down with a stomach bug today.  It was not planned and in true working mom fashion I went into panic mode.  I rearranged schedules, thought 14 steps ahead of every phone call, and tried to make her as comfortable as a 3 year old throwing up every 20 minutes can be.  When I held her in my arms, sweaty, and weepy I channeled my mother and broke into Makenzie's favorite song. The voice and song that once soothed me as a child surfaced and created a safety that Makenzie hadn't felt all day. At that moment I became the mother from my childhood memories and I crossed over to the other side of mom.

I didn't learn how to teach a lesson, how to deal with my kids, or how to be a wife from my mom. I learned how to be a person that can juggle, manage and succeed at all those things at once.  I am the person I am because my mom challenged me to think about what I do before I do it.  I am intentional and deliberate because of her questions and example.  I am me because she was willing to let me try and fail, always knowing that the best way to teach is by example.  I am not her and never will be, but I am a better version of myself because of her.


  1. This is such a nice tribute to your mom. Moms have so much power and you are setting the example for your daughter to someday reflect on her mom.

  2. What a wonderful description of your mom, and of what being a mother should be, that you are 'a better version of yourself because of her.' I liked that you weaved your life into the story, especially about your daughter.

  3. This is a beautiful piece of appreciation. It is a balanced mixture of what happened, your memories, and reflection.